Who Am I?

Who AM I? That's a good question. Who are any of us, really?

No, now's not the time for a philosophical discussion on the nature of who we are as people. Now is the time for me to explain just what I'm doing posting on this blog, just incase someone reads it (which would be shocking to me, to be honest).

Anyway, my name is Alex. I'm 23 and I'm going to try to be a writer.

Yes, I know, I'm one of many (thousands? hundreds of thousands?) who want the same, and very few people succeed. Still, I can't get bogged down in the likelihood of my dreams coming to fruition. All I can do is work to try make sure that they will in fact come true. While I do so, I'm going to try to keep up this blog. I kind of want to document this journey for myself, and I hope that maybe someone might end up reading it and perhaps I can make a new friend or two out of it. I'm also hoping that perhaps someone with a similar goal might end up reading this, and perhaps it might help them in their journey. That would be nice.

What do I do with my life at the moment?

I live in a small apartment in a high rise with my boyfriend, who is amazing. I go to school in Scriptwriting, and there I learn how to write movies, tv shows, plays and advertisements/training videos. I work part time at a mall and feel like I never have enough time to myself. I'm one of the cheapest people you'll ever meet and I love to watch tv and movies, play video games, read, draw and write, obviously.

So, about me and my goals (basically: what is this blog going to be about?):

My ultimate goal in being a writer? Well, there's actually two, depending on into which arena I end up taking my writing. One is to write a movie or television show that actually gets produced (and preferably is well-received) and the other is to write a novel that is published by a major publishing company and which does "well" (the requirements for "well" is something that I'll discuss at length in a later post). I once read that 81% of Americans believe that they could write a best-selling novel, but somehow I don't think so. Here's hoping that I'm one of the few that can. Not that I'm American, but you get the idea.

Meanwhile, I'm also cultivating fall-back plans, because although I believe that you should pursue your dreams with all as much gusto as you have in your body, you should also be prepared for the eventuality that they won't work out. Most dreams are dreams because they are unrealistic. No-one dreams of having a crappy office job or retail job, but they make up huge proportions of the adult work force. So what I'm saying is - going after your dreams is important (hey, that's what I'm doing!), but don't make your happiness contingent upon achieving them - and don't make your survival contingent either - you need money to eat and to have a roof over your head.

I'll also write a bit about general life struggles, I think. It's been a tough time for me recently as I've suffered a lot of depression and anxiety, related to other things, but also related to my age and my place in society. It's tough to be in your early twenties.

I have so much more to say, but I'll leave it here for now, otherwise this post will be too long for anyone to bother reading, and I'll have nothing else to say later.

I guess I'll finish it by saying that I'm super friendly and always willing to chat with people. So if you like me or what I say, or want to know more, please send me a message or comment on my blog. Thanks for reading, internet people.